Sunday to myself

How long has it been since i have my sunday to myself? All these while it’s been five working days and two study days, every week. On top of which sometime i have some freelancing to do. I think today, i make it up for myself.

Cooked my own lunch, have it with a friend, watch some movie, with ben and jerry, even better its now raining and im enjoying the weather outside. Im sleepy but i dont wanna waste my sunday to sleep.

I guess its true that we dont need to go far to chillex. Cause its a blissful day. Although it would be better if karen, tiara, and shane is here. Theres just enough seats for everyone here.

And its a blessed sunday. And i shall be productive again tomorrow. Need to finish my last paper, too! Ciao—

back from bangkok

such a sudden decision to go bangkok tho. because at first i thought that it’s a study week so it’s gonna be hard to apply leave. but as i find out it’s songkran, then i decided to go. haha. it is so much fun spending times with old friends - just brought back that memory from high school.

The 4 days trips seems to be very.. very short.. i don’t even have enough time to go to Jim Thompson house. (so sad).. and basically everyone has to run around the malls to shop. (lol). the worst thing is when everyone ran out of money except Herlin - then she’s liike the bank. But anyway, 

spent the first day around the city - and also madam Tussaud -  lost track on time and then canceled our drink at sirocco @ lebua. end up with street foods in the room

the next day is all spent for songkran and walking around in the scorching hot day and then end up in the platinum for shopping spree…

The night we made up for last night plan to go to the sirocco @ lebua.. 

After drinking, the next day we have to be ready at 6 30 AM for the floating market trip. which of course we are all late for.. kekekeke

the package also come along with trips to the elephant and crocodile farm. keke

The night is spent with dinner at Baiyoke Sky Tower. Supposed to sit at 64th floor. but the guy made mistake on our reservation and we have to add few bucks and get upgraded to the 83rd floor - which with no regret i think serve better food..

After dinner, some of them went back but some of us went to the famous bed supper club.. it was sooo coool altho they played techno music that night.. such a turn off. haha

with another slight hangover, we have to wake up early again for another shopping spree as it was the last day already.. 

where we fit 12 of us in one innova. wuwuwu

Then, it’s time to go back already.. la la la

and last but not least.. the famous photo of the things you bought from bangkok. (i just have to post it) kekeke

ciao.

remembered exactly three years ago, we celebrated earth hour for the first time. we had dinner at the manhattan fish market before it started. we sit just beside that water pond before the tower just suddenly turn dark. it was not totally dark though.. but it was kinda cool. then we took bus back to home. i was sitting at the other seat and you texted me just to look at how midvalley and the gardens turned off their lights too. but i missed it. and when we reached sunway pyramid it was still black before it suddenly turn bright again as we walked home. i was wearing that blue checkered shirt with white shorts and huge wayfarer, you were in black polo and jeans. 

trust no voices in your head

it’s as if you can read my mind
just with a flick of your fingers

everytime when the hope is gone
you just come at that time
bringing hope again
and i was believed

again and again

and then, you played that brain and heart
and again, i told myself not to put it up high
but i end up going through the same process
it’s tiring, isn’t it?

it’s fun for you, eh?

Sometimes i feel like it would have been better if i could be ignorant. Many times i tried. Many times i failed. The mouth shouts fuck this shit as the brain keeps on thinking what to do next.

And so it happened a lot of times of days.

It was a strange day for me today as in i was not sure what i did the whole day but it seems like a strange one. And i know i have not been productive at all. At least i am weird today. And lots of times i convinced myself that it happened because i was not sleeping well last night. But i’m not pretty much convinced.

I am convinced that i am crazy. Bipolar, the least. Or any other mental disorder you can name. Then again, i think i am a little bit dramatic now. After all, it’s just another strange day in the seas of those strange days where one strange moment happens after another.

And i guess the conflicts never end. The one inside the brain. And i owe all of you an apology for over reacting today. Not over reacting maybe. But insanely reacting. I think after all, i am the one that need to see the psychologist. But i am sane - i convinced myself.

At least i hope i am. And i believe i am.

P.S: dont take it seriously, after all im just over reacting. And it’s one of those strange stuffs. Im just being dramatic. Drama queen. Potato queen. Oh yeah!

it’s kinda sad how we are apart right now. and to some extent, we might not even have time to greet each other, not even a simple text message. it’s kinda funny if i told you a million times that i do not forget you, but to some extent, i never even say hi to you. it’s even funnier if i keep asking you to trust me that i never did forget you, because it does not make sense. yea, it does not make any sense if we were that close that time, and i did not even greet you, still i told you i never forget you. but anyway, i miss you. now. i really do.

people always ask me how do i cope with three major things - working, studying, and freelancing. i guess i am grateful to be living this busy life at this age rather than not productive at this age. have another appointment tomorrow - and now if i managed to close this one, i really need to work over over time, maybe work 26 hours a day. 

i hate how everything just come right at the same time. aiks!